Monday, December 30, 2013

It's building up

Something is building up inside me.  It's there.  Just below the surface.  Some days I think I can almost see it.  It is reaching up.  Struggling to reach the light and be free.  Should I set it free?  Or suppress it?
I am afraid of it.  But it brings hope.  Hope of change.  Something different.  More than just the status quo.  More than what I am now.
When I catch a glimpse I see the edges are razor sharp. It brings pain. I know that when it reaches the surface it will rip through and burst free...but it will not be a quiet change.  It will be a violent transformation.  With casualties.
I know what it is.  It is me.  My true form.
She is hiding but she grows restless.  She wishes to see the light and be free.
Soon.  I shall set her free soon.
When I am prepared for the pain of revealing her.  When I am prepared for the changes she brings and the losses she will bring to my life.  When I can accept the freedom she promises me.

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