I am being tested.

I think I'm being tested.  I'm not sure who is doing the testing, or what I win if I pass, but this definitely feels like  a test.  Every part of my life and even little bits of my sanity are in a whirlwind and are being ripped to pieces.  I think the object of this test is to see what my breaking point is....or maybe it's not a test but just a sick and twisted torture game.
So, I'm being tested..or tortured...either way I am going through a lot of shit right now.  I have some people telling me how strong I am and others telling me I am weak and not holding myself together enough.  That's really nice.  I don't think I am either one.  I'm just going through this like anything else.  I handle what I can handle and I shove everything else aside...why worry about it if I can't immediately fix it, right?  So, then this morning I see this quote:

"Women are like tea bags. You don't know how strong they are until you put them in hot water."
-Eleanor Roosevelt.

And my first thought was that Eleanor Roosevelt was one creepy bitch....and then I realized she wasn't talking about ACTUALLY boiling real women...it's just an analogy comparing really stressful situations to being in hot water.  Ok, sorry.  My brain has been through the ringer lately and sometimes I'm not so sharp!  So, after I realize what the quote is really saying (and mentally apologize to the late Mrs. Roosevelt) I start to compare it to myself.  Maybe I am being tested to see how strong I am.  But I didn't even get to study before this test.  And I don't like tea...oh, wait...it's an analogy, right.  Ahem.  Sorry...remember my brain isn't functioning correctly.
All I know is things really suck right now but I am surviving it.  I seriously don't know how...but I am!  The water is really hot right now but I just keep steeping and I'm just getting stronger and stronger!  I might just pass this test.